im a sad girl

all i want is a man possessing eyes only for me. i’ve never had this before. it wouldn’t solve all my problems, but it surely would keep my tired mind at ease in one aspect. there is a constant state of panic in my head that always leaves me to believe that i am not the only girl, and i have always been right. my first boyfriend was talking to another girl while sitting next to me on my sixteenth birthday. my second boyfriend started dating the girl he told me not to worry about, all the while obsessing over unrealistically-illustrated women on the internet. my most recent boyfriend was receiving gifts in the mail from a girl that was in love with him and texting the girl that he should have married already. what could they possibly do that i couldn’t? i have so much to offer, why is it never enough? why is it impossible to find anyone that is as interested in me and only me, while i devote my life and love to them and beg their eyes not to wander elsewhere?

03.09.2024